It has been over three years since I have written a blog post. I never meant to be away this long, but one day led to a week and then to a month and eventually to three years. I have missed blogging, but I think it was necessary to take this break. When I started this blog, I wanted to become “a professional blogger” or whatever that means. I set the blog up, started writing posts, and away I went. Where I lost myself was when I started doing the things that a “professional blogger” is supposed to do. I started looking into ways to monetize the blog and started to look for ways to promote the blog. In the process of doing those things, I reached a place where I felt like I was selling out, and then I lost my motivation. Anyone who knows me well knows that I despise the idea of selling anyone anything. If it is real, you should not need to sell it.
There are many types of blogs. Some people write witty and humor filled personal blogs. Others write blogs devoted to their passions of cooking or interior design. There are also cooky blogs filled with paranoia or cat photos. This is the internet, and you will find every type of blog that you can imagine, and they all have value if they are written and read with authenticity. I always intended this blog to be about personal growth and about developing and following our dreams and passions. While I never planned for the blog to be a personal blog, I never wanted to completely detach myself and my experiences from the contents of this blog, as well. I want to get back to the writing that I wanted to do.
Amusingly, when I went to write this post, I found that I could not even remember the password for my blogging account. Once I reset the password, I found that WordPress needed an update, plugins needed to be updated, and even my theme needed an update. While poking around the menus, I even discovered that my blog was still getting quite a few daily visits. Encouraged, I drove right in and began writing a blog post. When I returned to finish the post, I discovered that I had not saved my previous work. So now I am starting the post over, albeit with more brevity. Life is always a series of new beginnings.
I am not sure how often I will post here. I do not want to keep myself to a strict schedule. I want the blog to be a joy not a chore, but I do plan to write frequently. For now, I probably will not be posting a lot of photographs or quotes. I would like to take a more minimalistic approach, at least for the time being. I plan to write for myself, advice another blogger gave me recently… but I hope you’ll play along with me. A lot has happened in the past two years. I did not walk the Camino de Santiago, though it’s still something I plan to do. I have started volunteering more, I still need my cane on occasion, I am taking formal meditation classes, I became a certified scuba diver, tested for my third degree black belt, decided to go back to school… and was diagnosed with type one bipolar disorder. Most importantly, though, I feel at peace, and I want to write from that place.